Pictures

Here are some pictures~
The 1st picture is my new shoe box... 2nd picture is my new shoe and the 3rd picture is my shoe with the box together ^^








I only manage to take 2 pictures for the party... 3 guys are using the fan to start the fire for the BBQ...


The middle guy is my sifu and my buddy, Kien Weng... The one in light blue is my dai kor, Yie Tat... Finally the one in black is my another buddy, Eugene... (^_^)



Sorry that the pictures kinda blur~

A while away from blog

it has been awhile i din blog already~ there are few reason~
1) lazy
2) busy playing game
3) lazy ^^

total of 10 days i din blog already~ my buddy told me that blog no need to update always~ let me briefly tell you what happen in that 10 days... For public speaking exam, i din slep at all~ which is my second time happens for my exam... i think the same thing to my buddy... well... besides that, i did badly for my so call General Maths... actually it is add maths lai de >.<

but wat to do?? haha~ after exam, i book genting room under Eric's name and last minute You Zi say that she cant go... oh well... nvm lu~ cancel liao the trip... so we did ntg for the 1st few days of holiday... i ask my formal boss any job for me to do anot b4 the exam but no reply~ slowly waiting~ that was 17 sept la... on weekend which is saturday 18th sept, i went for shopping with my mum... bought new shoe ^^ recently i like pink and blue~ i also dunno why... been finding and editing my blog skin... finish half way and lazy to do the other half liao~ haha~ lets cut the story short...

Yesterday went for ktv and party... ktv at low yat from 12pm till 3pm... after ktv, we hang out a while and discuss about the party abit... we keep asking eric and you zi to go but they cant... sigh~ at the end only me, kien weng, nicole and yie tat go... well... eugene juz come for the party... better than ntg lo... we did BBQ from 6.30pm till 10pm and we go for steamboat from 10pm till 11pm... whole night of food ^^

yie tat sent us home around 12.30 to 1am... i reach home around 2am.. lead them the way back to town so kor can send kien weng home... i ask them to sms me after they reach... kien weng reach about 3.11am and yie tat reach home about 3.45am... thank god that they are safe...

on wednesday, my formal boss call me up to ask me either can work yday anot... i told her that i have event so she ask me to go for work today and on following monday... today's 1st job kinda fast finish cause it is related to computer ^^ 2nd job are kinda boring but can read magazines ^^ she say maybe i goin to work for her till following friday ^^ hurray~ total i will get about RM180+?? around there la but the money is not for me~ the money is to pay back wat i owe to my mum about phone bill... i shud not call to singapore already~ i guess tis month's bill are much more expensive than the previous month~

Well~ tomoro going out with alex as he is very weird recently~ dunno why but hopefully it be a nice day tomoro... sleepy already~ wanna wash up the plates, bath and head for bed ^^ tatas

A day of Outing and Unexpected Event (15th September 2008)

Today i went out around 11.30am and meet my secondary school friend around 12.30pm... Planning to go to the complex to buy stuff that i needed for my exam and meanwhile face my ex and his GF... Ended up i din saw them and i am surprise that today his car was not at the basement of the complex... Hang around in that complex and 3 of us go to Low Yat to meet someone...

My friends are kinda tricky... Bring me to meet their guy friend... One of my friend says that reach Low Yat 3 something so we head off at 2.30 reach Times Square at 2.50pm... Suddenly i found out that my friends say my pet bro was working at Times Square... I was like "What?! Really?! Why i don't know?!" i know this pet bro since secondary school... I think it was 2 years back... The 1st time he say when he saw me was "Where have u been missing to? Married adiizzit?" i was so damn sweat by him... Kinda joke with him... Me, my girl friends and my bro was chatting at Time Square... It was around 3.20pm... All of the sudden my ex called me... As usual he like a policemen... Ask me that ask me this... I have to lie just to escape him...

So me and my friend left Times Square to meet my friend's friends... Which is one bunch of guys... If lengzai i dun mind la but it is NOT lengzai at all... How bad am i... Hahaha.... We reach about 4pm... Well 3 girls and 3 guys went for yamcha... Kinda weird that I'm the stranger at the table there... Finally i get bored and nothing to do... I take out my Public Speaking notes and read.... About 5pm we head off from Low Yat to Times Square to head back home...

I called my mum and wanted to go back with her... So i said goodbye to my friends and go find my bro while waiting for my mum... Chat with him a while and he ask me when is my birthday... I thought that he just ask but at the end he force me to choose a present at a shop next to his working place... I choose Doraemon ^^ at 1st i thought wanna buy for my dai kor, Yie Tat but at the end i get that for my "advance" birthday present...

My mum arrive and i borrow money from her to buy 2nd Doraemon since my bro was there and i can get discount ^^ Around 5.30pm i called up my Singapore brother, Kenny to have a chat a while although we only chat about 2-3 minutes... Expensive expenses to call him... Eating dinner with my mum around 5.45pm till 6.20pm... Went to find my bro before i leave... Toke train and bus to go home... Reach home around 8pm+

Got online, play few round of dota, study (currently) and now writing blog cause i felt sleepy... Calvin find me back now just because i ask him about the 25th September's event... Arh~~ Don't care bout him la... Now Kien Weng, my buddy a.k.a my sifu was afk... I think he already went down stair of his house to watch TV...

Need to get back to study now... Another 8 more chapter to go... Need to finish before head to bed... See ya guys ^^

14th September 2008

God give us feelings and we are glad with that... I should have glad with that... But for today i have a feeling i don't want that gift anymore... The feeling of pain in heart is so pain cause of the past... Kien Weng and You Zi keep telling me what is pass is pass... I always keep that in mind but somehow the incident happen on me is really pain...

Start to do nothing since 8pm... Go for study in my room ended up slept till almost 12am... Woke up and chat with Kenny in the phone for a while... Online doing nothing and i also dunno what I'm waiting for... Start searching about HTML codes and some anime pictures... Spent about 30 minutes on HTML research and almost one hour on anime pictures...

Planning to start practise on my web page design as that is one of the course for next semester... I dont know why i have a sudden interest on it.. But well i going to start "soon"... Now i wonder who got read my blog... I only know You Zi and MJ got read but about Eric, Kien Weng and Kenny I dont know... Well... Dont care so much la....

Trying to act as usual altho i felt jealousy or pain or sad.... Trying to get use to the mask i am wearing now but still i will only show my real self to certain people... So see ya~ Update later again....

A day with all kind of feelings (13 September 2008)

What is feelings?
- Hatred
- Missing someone
- Bored
- Regrets

What else? This is what i felt today...

Started my day after noon... Started with hatred and regrets... Plan to go and find the my ex... Ended up didnt go... Why? I was afraid... I get online and only saw 3 of my Utar frens onli... Not even my jie or kor was on... Already expected Kien Weng wont on as he is still sleeping...

Play two round of dota with Kien Weng start from 3pm till around 6pm+
Chat about genting and party... Hurray!! One week of event non-stop~~

But well, i still not so sure bout genting yet~~ 1st cause my dai kor's dad not going genting as the same date we going... 2nd we cant book online as we need credit cards... 3nd we dunno where else to book de room... About the party, we plan to do on 25th of September... Planning to change the KTV competition from 1pm to morning... So afternoon we have time to swimming at nicole's house and BBQ as our night party ^^

After 25th of September, i will be free till 28th of September... As i ask my formal boss they need my help anot... She say will tell me coming Thursday... Hopefully i get a job so i can pay my debt if i owe someone...

Now is 2.04am on 14 September... Boring Boring Boring~~ This is what i felt now... Din touch any dota or books yet since Kien Weng goes for his gathering... Hope that he have fun tonight... Now i dont only felt that... I miss someone also... Those happy times together playing and be there when i need someone~~ sigh....

I also planning to give up the feeling i have now~~ I felt so damn useless about that feeling~~ I dont feel any chance for the feeling i have now~~ Goin off now~ Tata

Days Full With Sad Memories

Rainy days represents my mood now... Windy breeze represents my heart now...

I get stab today at my heart... I am so disappointed with my Computer Studies today... Cause of this exam i didn't sleep from yesterday till now... Study with Kien Weng and i bet he is very tired now also... Hopefully he get a good rest...

Life is just once... Everyone should appreciate it... I did appreciate it and today what i get after what i have sacrifice for so long is totally not that i expected... Totally hurt me deep and I have make a dead decision that i will change myself no matter what...

12 am Comes,
Another Day Reaches,
Night Cools Sun Will Rise Soon,
I Will Change Real Soon.
No Matter What Happens Today,
No Matter What People Say,
Either Today, Tomorrow or Future,
No One Will Able To Stop Me Now.


This is what i write out... Cant really say is a poem... Thanks for everyone that cares for me.. Especially to Kien Weng, You Zi, Eric, Nicole, Hui Ing, and Kenny (my sg bro)~ Not that i write a will or anything... Just wanna say thanks for those who i felt that cares for me...

I'm sorry to
1)Kien Weng - my buddy and sifu... sry that i disappointed you for my exams....
2)Eric - for what happen on 12 September 2008 while u are walking with me...
3)You Zi - for giving kor trouble...
4)To everyone that i have been rude to... I know they dun lik me but still a Sorry is owe to them


Time now is 12.15am... Time is ticking~ Waiting for Kien Weng my best friend to online... I have something to tell him...

To Kenny my Singapore kor, thanks for giving me support all these while... Thanks to Kien Weng, Eric and You Zi...

Thousands of Apologies and Thousands of Thanks

10th September 2008, Wednesday

I slept at 6am today... was studying with kien weng and play one round of dota with him... before head to the bed we chat abit... manage to add one more song for my final fantasy collection... supposed to wake up at 8am to cook sandwish (bread+egg+cheese) but ended up woke up at 10.45am and kinda rushing in the kitchen... smsed kien weng as i scare he will wake up late for the exam cause recently he can sleep real long till 2-3pm... haha

around 11.15am he reply me and i just done with the cooking~ rushing to prepare myself to go to school as i dont wanna reach there at 1pm... called up kenny and have a 2 minute chat before i depart from my house... i toke a taxi from my house to the train station and manage to reach Asia Jaya at 12.30pm.... toke a taxi from Asia Jaya station to school... meet kien weng, eric and you zi at 12.40pm... see them studying economics make me headache... going crazy cause the test....

2pm comes... enter the class with Max... sat next to him and teachers ask us to check our test paper... i was shock about the question... the only question i know how to do is question number 4... i din manage to answer all correct... if not mistaken i lost about 60 marks include those that i simply answer... at 4pm, i meet eric and some other friends outside the examination hall... talk about the test and i was the third worst out of all... i saw Max answer some of the question so i think he may manage to pass the exam...

around 4.15pm i accompany eric to the foundation office to get a letter but i dunno what letter he got... kien weng appear before eric get the letter... he looks so happy with the exam... i guess he knows how to answer everything... Looking forward that he get 4.0 (A) in this economics exam so i no need to treat him... me and eric sat his car to the train station... i wanna sit silent in the car as my exam was so terrible but i didn't cause if i did, kien weng and eric will think what happen to me and start worrying...

i must change transport in order to go back... i reach to the bus station around 5.30pm and reach my house around 6.30pm... i dont like to reach home early cause whenever i at home i will think of negative stuff... but however i wanna reach home early so i can online and chat with you zi and kien weng while i can before we separate to respective campus on May 2009... around 6.45pm i start to play dota with eric and kien weng... i like to play dota with kien weng cause whenever i play dota i wont think of anything but only dota...

i went for dinner at 8.20pm just now and i done eating within 12 minutes... chat with kien weng a little about life till 9.20pm cause his sister wanna use the computer so he have to afk... i was reading my friends blog while waiting kien weng to get back his computer... at my friend's blog, i saw a quiz which really suit with my situation now... i get the result already and it really saying every truth about me... i have posted the quiz below... i think thats all for now... will update tomorrow if i have mood... see ya readers....

The quiz i found from my friend's blog

Are You Over Your Ex?

Are You Over Your Ex?

You are still into your Ex - at least have a feeling toward her/him. At this stage you feel like trapped on the past memories and you can not move on. Everything you do, you always connect it with the things you did with your ex. Ask yourself a little question whether you still want your ex back. It is good if your ex is on the same page with you - means that he/she also want you back. Maybe there is a little chance that you guys can be together again and start compromsing things right at the beginning. But, if your ex has already moved on. It is better for you to forget whatever it is about your ex and Move on too!

Take this quiz!

9th September 2008, Tuesday

Yesterday was my English exam... end out sucks... essay supposed to be 350-400 words only but ended up i wrote 560 words... GREAT... section B i think i can score but section C... haiz... forget bout it ba... i was kinda down while on my way home... So many problems to handle and another 5 more exam to go on more... i cant even know i am able to go to next semester anot... i wanna study with my friends again.... wanna same assignment group with my kor, my jie and my buddy... T_T

last night i have nothing to do so i continue to find blog skin... found many blog skin but i prefer to copy and edit it myself ^^ while i was editing, i was chatting with my buddy- kien weng and nicole, my kor - eric and kenny (from spore) and my jie- you zi... Nicole unable to join us for genting so at the end onli 4 of us are goin.... tried to book genting room but need to be 18 years old and have a credit card.. too bad both of the condition i cant fullfil... i used eric's name to book but he dun have credit card so cant also... now we are trying other ways to get the room ready b4 it was fully taken by ppl...

Yesterday receive 2 bad things happen... one is i fight with my current ex again for no reason... tat case totally make my day ruin... another one is my bro unable to come down to have trip with me anymore... it like OH MY GOD!!! why is this happening to me?? i was so happy past few days cause he is coming but now.... haiz~~~ ended up i play dota with kien weng and eric... around 1 something or 2 something, me, kien weng, you zi and eric gather up in msn to discuss genting~ our plan get delay cause eric will ask help from his side....

Today i stay at house as nothing to do... suppose got la that is study but i see the book on the table also lazy already... furthermore at house i cant study and i'm the type of person that cant study alone.. so tomorrow is DOOM day... meet u all in heaven ya ^^ the afternoon i was editing my blog skin... this morning once i woke up, i straight online... none of my buddy online even my kor or jie... around 11am, i chat with kenny (my kor from singapore) around 30 minutes... he sound kinda happy to get my call... after the call, i continue to edit my blog skin from yesterday's process... around 1pm+, i thought why so weird that my sifu not yet online so i sms him and he din reply... wat i guess are correct... he is still sleeping.. zZz

around 2 something, he online and few of my frens online also... so i chat with them while listening to music and editing blog... start to play dota with kien weng till around 6 something just now... now i'm here writing blog to you all... my mood for today also not really good already cause my ex called me just now... i dunno he was acting that he cares for me or he really cares... he ask me about how i am, what i'm doing and did i have exam tomorrow.... well... at the end of the call, we kinda fight abit and both of us close the phone...

i hate him~ really hate him~ hate this world alot... wanted to escape from this world....