The rules are simple..
- do not copy the answers
- the tag questions must be 100% same
- tag ppl after doing the tag
- no tagging the same ppl back
People I tag:
1. Simon Hiew
2. Lim Eu Gene
3. Yong Cheng
4. Steven
5. Ying Ying
6. Yi-Hua
7. Karen
8. Kenny Tan
9. Hui Ing
10. Nicole Ng
now the questions are:
how do u noe number 1?
From my cousin birthday party
what'll u do if u never met number 2?
nothing? he is my pet bro @@
what would u do if 3 & 4 dated u?
er... Yong Cheng is only my fren and Steven is my fren also (not sure now)
would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
Both of them are good friends.... Gals somemore
do u think number 10 is attractive?
Every gals have their own attractive side so is a yes
do you noe anything bout number 8 family?
Not really
tell me something about number 9?
She owns a laptop and bring it to campus often ^^
what language does number 2 speaks?
All types of language I think. LOL
who is number 3 going out with?
The gal he likes?
how old is number 4?
18 years old
when was the last time u talked to number 5?
Before SPM over?
who is number 6 favourite singer?
Nicholas Teo ^^ (if not mistaken)
would u date number 7?
Gals hang out together is normal
is number 8 single?
He have a GF
what do u think about number 3?
Nice person?
Friday, February 27, 2009
1st Tag by Genise
Starts with something random, then start the next line with the last word from the next line.
I wish i have more time,
Time is very important,
important events or memories are meant to be remember,
remember those around you,
you are the one who reads my blog,
blog are a place to write thought and feelings,
feelings are really important to me and simon,
simon is the one i love,
love him until sacrifice those around me,
me tagged everyone that reads my blog and Simon is compulsory ^^
I wish i have more time,
Time is very important,
important events or memories are meant to be remember,
remember those around you,
you are the one who reads my blog,
blog are a place to write thought and feelings,
feelings are really important to me and simon,
simon is the one i love,
love him until sacrifice those around me,
me tagged everyone that reads my blog and Simon is compulsory ^^
Monday, February 23, 2009
why?
drop by drop dripping from the knife after stabbing a heart just like tears by tears falling from deep inside my heart
i dunno why i feeling this... but neither my heart feels really hurt...
all i felt is all the people around just used the trust i have for them to get what they one...
either that to take away everything that i have...
but now i realize no matter how selfish i am, how protective i am, how much i sacrifice myself; i will not have the thing that i want to be totally mine...
there is always something between my way...
when one problem settle and i started to trust the people around me on my everything no matter personal or impersonal stuff, everything start to turn around...
it hurts me indirectly... hurts me deep and able to make me cry no matter where i am...
i always try to hold back.. hold back everything... tears, sorrow, pain and the most important my emotions...
i not longer able to do anything anymore... but just to hold back and cry alone...
cry alone in the dark or in my room alone.. i hate tis feeling....
force to bare with what other people called that not suppose to call except his or her own partner...
force to bare with hearing those words which means deep feeling for me but not from me...
this is how world is when you love someone....
i tried to open to everything that i not used to open for....
i tried to be tolerance where i am not used to be...
is it wrong to change who i am for someone?
but why in return i hurt myself?
really pain...
ignoring friends cause all i want is him and all i need is him....
ignoring everyone besides me include my parents cause all i wan is him...
without him, i really dunno what to do next....
~♥~ sadness as the blood dripping from my heart ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
i dunno why i feeling this... but neither my heart feels really hurt...
all i felt is all the people around just used the trust i have for them to get what they one...
either that to take away everything that i have...
but now i realize no matter how selfish i am, how protective i am, how much i sacrifice myself; i will not have the thing that i want to be totally mine...
there is always something between my way...
when one problem settle and i started to trust the people around me on my everything no matter personal or impersonal stuff, everything start to turn around...
it hurts me indirectly... hurts me deep and able to make me cry no matter where i am...
i always try to hold back.. hold back everything... tears, sorrow, pain and the most important my emotions...
i not longer able to do anything anymore... but just to hold back and cry alone...
cry alone in the dark or in my room alone.. i hate tis feeling....
force to bare with what other people called that not suppose to call except his or her own partner...
force to bare with hearing those words which means deep feeling for me but not from me...
this is how world is when you love someone....
i tried to open to everything that i not used to open for....
i tried to be tolerance where i am not used to be...
is it wrong to change who i am for someone?
but why in return i hurt myself?
really pain...
ignoring friends cause all i want is him and all i need is him....
ignoring everyone besides me include my parents cause all i wan is him...
without him, i really dunno what to do next....
~♥~ sadness as the blood dripping from my heart ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Overall of the day (8th February 2009)
Half of the day i wasnt myself... totally not myself.... someone told me before its not good to day dream as later we cant differentiate what is reality and what is fantasy.... i was really negative minded.... whatever happens to me last time directly hit me right after i woke up today....
writing the previous post is really a relief for me but also a heartache for me as i will hurt the readers heart.... its not on purpose to do that... blog is a place where i can write whatever i think or feel or anything and its for my friends to read to update about me (i wonder is there any)...
i wrote the previous post for 4 hours... i finally learn the proper way to cook one of Simon's favorite dish.... and the internet line disappoint me today... dunno whats wrong.... i take a nap at 6.30pm while sms-ing with Simon and woke up at 9pm... my grandma, cousins and my aunt really pissed me off just now till 10pm... was glad that Simon is online with me now... nothing much as i'm having headache now.... thats all...
P.S: sorry for the hurtful post Simon.... my love will never change but it grew always as day passes by... Love ya...
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
writing the previous post is really a relief for me but also a heartache for me as i will hurt the readers heart.... its not on purpose to do that... blog is a place where i can write whatever i think or feel or anything and its for my friends to read to update about me (i wonder is there any)...
i wrote the previous post for 4 hours... i finally learn the proper way to cook one of Simon's favorite dish.... and the internet line disappoint me today... dunno whats wrong.... i take a nap at 6.30pm while sms-ing with Simon and woke up at 9pm... my grandma, cousins and my aunt really pissed me off just now till 10pm... was glad that Simon is online with me now... nothing much as i'm having headache now.... thats all...
P.S: sorry for the hurtful post Simon.... my love will never change but it grew always as day passes by... Love ya...
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Random topic? Guys plz read the 1st line b4 continue...
Guys that read this, i apologize for whatever i going to say here if i say wrong.... i just wanna say out my thoughts... for those who cant accept the worst comments about guys please do not continue this post... Simon.... stop reading this when my words starts to hurt....
Honestly i did think of my guys friends before and wonder how they are.... Have they change? how is their life? what happen when we din meet? etc etc.... but now its useless as i cant always take care myself also but why wanna care bout other ppl?? these are the few guy name where i used to think about them and cares about them...
- Simon (used to be my friend and now bf)
- Alex Chong (my current ex)
- Kenny Tan (my sg bro)
- Steven (my close friend and my ex)
- Chris (used to be my best fren but now i dunno)
as i know for myself, i can help ppl till the max.... i can be there when they need someone.... i try my best to do whatever they ask me to help... but for myself?? i cant do it.... i eventually easily give up on myself... negative thoughts when smt bad happens and not think negative....
when i wanna find someone to talk, i will find my bf, Simon.... i din find anyone else cause i dun wan any conflict cause by me although i did some of it already.... about others where i dun wanna tell anyone i just keep to myself.... thats why i create this blog... to tell what kept in my heart most of the time....
sometimes we can rely on friends but for me i hope that my friends can tell me the truth even it hurts the most... i prefer them to tell me they dun wanna be friends with me either close friends, best friends or juz normal friends.... truth is the best but it hurt also.... but no one knows action is much more hurtful than words.... avoiding is not the way.... treating me cold is not working on me either... but honestly, please hurt me with the truth that you guys have in the heart if u dun wan to be friends with me or anything else....
this morning i had a bad dream... a really bad dream... the first thing i think of is to find Simon... i really need him that time... feeling of insecure.... feeling of afraid... i had a feeling of losing something which is very important to me that is Simon... i told Simon about the dream i had this morning... although i din tell all but before i woke up, i dream of losing him.... i dun wan it to happen.... he said smt that kinda hurful and it makes me to have second thoughts.... it makes me think that is he the right guy for me... i'm sorry to say this Simon...
Guys always says that "i will be at ur side no matter what happens".... but den i'm thinking.... why must guys cant keep their words on that? case of rapist get increase day by day... and we girls be their victims of sexual intercourse by force.... of coz the parents and her partner cant accept it but will they stay by her side and support her? i know the parent does but how about the bf? as i know the bf will dump her coz of he cant accept the fact.... girls hardly tell the truth when they have sickness to their bf... why? everyone know coz she is afraid to get dump by the bf.... well... thats eventually almost all guys do... they depends on what sickness did she have.... if serious, thats the result...
is that called love? i dont think so.... for me love is to able to accept every good and bad that happens.... able to accept what is he, who is he and how is he.... love is to change each other slowly to be better.... i dunno how to explain love in words for me anymore....
in the world, all the guys can accept what i stated above can hardly find.... and the most important is, to find a guy that can accept whatever wrong u did.... for example, u betray him not on purpose and he forgive you.... he forgive you although u backstab him... anything that can be real worst he also able to forgive you and still love you... i know all this stuff is really hard to be accept if its happen during the relationship.... now this kind of guy are really rare to find now... i used to have a guy that able to do whatever i stated here.... when you found that kind of guy, the goodness are there but in return of something else....
i used to compare the guys i like with my condition which is personalities, looks, sports, and studies.... but i forgotten something which is very important... can he keep his words? can he really able to stay by my side even the worst things happens? can he accept who am i, how am i and what am i?
i really hope that my dear is the right guy for me.... i cant demand too much in relationship.... now all i wan is to appreciate him as long as i can... last time i promised that i would not betray my bf as long i still love him and i was train not to betray the one i loved by my current ex.... i will only leave him when he dun love me and doesnt need me anymore forever... there is no use to cling with someone that dont love you anymore... just go on with life...
sorry for those who reads till the end of this post if i hurt any heart feelings.... no offense as i just wanna write what i'm thinking.... more post tonight....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream tonight ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Honestly i did think of my guys friends before and wonder how they are.... Have they change? how is their life? what happen when we din meet? etc etc.... but now its useless as i cant always take care myself also but why wanna care bout other ppl?? these are the few guy name where i used to think about them and cares about them...
- Simon (used to be my friend and now bf)
- Alex Chong (my current ex)
- Kenny Tan (my sg bro)
- Steven (my close friend and my ex)
- Chris (used to be my best fren but now i dunno)
as i know for myself, i can help ppl till the max.... i can be there when they need someone.... i try my best to do whatever they ask me to help... but for myself?? i cant do it.... i eventually easily give up on myself... negative thoughts when smt bad happens and not think negative....
when i wanna find someone to talk, i will find my bf, Simon.... i din find anyone else cause i dun wan any conflict cause by me although i did some of it already.... about others where i dun wanna tell anyone i just keep to myself.... thats why i create this blog... to tell what kept in my heart most of the time....
sometimes we can rely on friends but for me i hope that my friends can tell me the truth even it hurts the most... i prefer them to tell me they dun wanna be friends with me either close friends, best friends or juz normal friends.... truth is the best but it hurt also.... but no one knows action is much more hurtful than words.... avoiding is not the way.... treating me cold is not working on me either... but honestly, please hurt me with the truth that you guys have in the heart if u dun wan to be friends with me or anything else....
this morning i had a bad dream... a really bad dream... the first thing i think of is to find Simon... i really need him that time... feeling of insecure.... feeling of afraid... i had a feeling of losing something which is very important to me that is Simon... i told Simon about the dream i had this morning... although i din tell all but before i woke up, i dream of losing him.... i dun wan it to happen.... he said smt that kinda hurful and it makes me to have second thoughts.... it makes me think that is he the right guy for me... i'm sorry to say this Simon...
Guys always says that "i will be at ur side no matter what happens".... but den i'm thinking.... why must guys cant keep their words on that? case of rapist get increase day by day... and we girls be their victims of sexual intercourse by force.... of coz the parents and her partner cant accept it but will they stay by her side and support her? i know the parent does but how about the bf? as i know the bf will dump her coz of he cant accept the fact.... girls hardly tell the truth when they have sickness to their bf... why? everyone know coz she is afraid to get dump by the bf.... well... thats eventually almost all guys do... they depends on what sickness did she have.... if serious, thats the result...
is that called love? i dont think so.... for me love is to able to accept every good and bad that happens.... able to accept what is he, who is he and how is he.... love is to change each other slowly to be better.... i dunno how to explain love in words for me anymore....
in the world, all the guys can accept what i stated above can hardly find.... and the most important is, to find a guy that can accept whatever wrong u did.... for example, u betray him not on purpose and he forgive you.... he forgive you although u backstab him... anything that can be real worst he also able to forgive you and still love you... i know all this stuff is really hard to be accept if its happen during the relationship.... now this kind of guy are really rare to find now... i used to have a guy that able to do whatever i stated here.... when you found that kind of guy, the goodness are there but in return of something else....
i used to compare the guys i like with my condition which is personalities, looks, sports, and studies.... but i forgotten something which is very important... can he keep his words? can he really able to stay by my side even the worst things happens? can he accept who am i, how am i and what am i?
i really hope that my dear is the right guy for me.... i cant demand too much in relationship.... now all i wan is to appreciate him as long as i can... last time i promised that i would not betray my bf as long i still love him and i was train not to betray the one i loved by my current ex.... i will only leave him when he dun love me and doesnt need me anymore forever... there is no use to cling with someone that dont love you anymore... just go on with life...
sorry for those who reads till the end of this post if i hurt any heart feelings.... no offense as i just wanna write what i'm thinking.... more post tonight....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream tonight ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Exam Day 4~
Exam Day 4~
Simon called me to wake up at 7am to study... in the end i sleep back till 8am.. from 8am drag to 10am... haha... woke up at that time and rush for study... was having a major headache when reading in the train coz i dunno how to do or shud i say confuse ^^ reach to exam hall at 1.30pm.... at least got somemore 30 minutes to read the formula...
enter the exam hall and sit on the table number 132.... haha.... den open the question paper.... i was so happy coz got one question is an example of the notes and one question is mid-term question... haha... so i do all that i know den i leave about 3 question that i dunno how to do.... try my luck on this paper ba... i leave the exam hall 30 minutes early... is about 3.30pm...
i straight go to midvalley to find Simon.... was happily coz of the paper... haha.... went there to meet him... happy coz able to see him.... he go there buy formal cloth but try d dun wan show... disappointed.... haiz.... but was happy able to spent time with him although is onli 2 hours along with his family....
ate dinner with them at Sushi King... have to resist myself coz i'm not the one who pay.... haiz... but i enjoy the food la.... i walked around with them till 7pm coz Simon wanna leave for youth service... dun wan say goodbye also have to say... i stop by at secret recipe coz i wanna buy cake for my mum as a thx for her letting me go out with Simon after the exam...
on the way back i saw a place where have alot of teddy displaying around... i took some pictures down... those teddy are for competition for valentine day.... very cute leh... below are some pictures....
Tuesday i would be start working but half day coz got exam.... and i finally can work together with someone i love which is Simon.. haha!! thats what i wish for last time... cant wait for tuesday.... and tat time my exam is finally over!! thatz all for today....
P.S: i do always love you.... being together with you is from bottom of my heart and not coz the feeling of guilty.... i felt guilty coz what u sacrifice is not worth it for me... although you are the 1st guy that did tat for me but still ur sacrifice is too big to lost a frenship coz me or whatsoever.... I love ya....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Simon called me to wake up at 7am to study... in the end i sleep back till 8am.. from 8am drag to 10am... haha... woke up at that time and rush for study... was having a major headache when reading in the train coz i dunno how to do or shud i say confuse ^^ reach to exam hall at 1.30pm.... at least got somemore 30 minutes to read the formula...
enter the exam hall and sit on the table number 132.... haha.... den open the question paper.... i was so happy coz got one question is an example of the notes and one question is mid-term question... haha... so i do all that i know den i leave about 3 question that i dunno how to do.... try my luck on this paper ba... i leave the exam hall 30 minutes early... is about 3.30pm...
i straight go to midvalley to find Simon.... was happily coz of the paper... haha.... went there to meet him... happy coz able to see him.... he go there buy formal cloth but try d dun wan show... disappointed.... haiz.... but was happy able to spent time with him although is onli 2 hours along with his family....
ate dinner with them at Sushi King... have to resist myself coz i'm not the one who pay.... haiz... but i enjoy the food la.... i walked around with them till 7pm coz Simon wanna leave for youth service... dun wan say goodbye also have to say... i stop by at secret recipe coz i wanna buy cake for my mum as a thx for her letting me go out with Simon after the exam...
on the way back i saw a place where have alot of teddy displaying around... i took some pictures down... those teddy are for competition for valentine day.... very cute leh... below are some pictures....
Tuesday i would be start working but half day coz got exam.... and i finally can work together with someone i love which is Simon.. haha!! thats what i wish for last time... cant wait for tuesday.... and tat time my exam is finally over!! thatz all for today....
P.S: i do always love you.... being together with you is from bottom of my heart and not coz the feeling of guilty.... i felt guilty coz what u sacrifice is not worth it for me... although you are the 1st guy that did tat for me but still ur sacrifice is too big to lost a frenship coz me or whatsoever.... I love ya....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Tagged by Genise Low
Genise.... thx for the taggy... love it!! haha...
here it goes~~
Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her.
1- Funny
2- Happy-go-lucky gal
3- Like by everyone
4- look good on any kind of style
5- a good listener
6- a good friend to be
7- a gal who update herself in everything
8- someone who never forget friends
9- never buy private stuff for what she loved
10- she will try to get the stuff which is in her list
P.S: sorry if i say anything wrong
The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself
1- Stubborn
2- Night owl
3- Talkative
4- Childish
5- Naughty
6- Negative minded (depends on what)
7- Love wine, sushi etc etc
8- In love with Simon Hiew
9- Fans of sony ericsson
10- Like to do anything as long can make myself happy...
Friends that i tag [10 friends]
1- Lim Eu Gene
2- Randy (Chee Wai)
3- Sheena Liam
4- Evonne Teo
5- Yong Cheng
6- Simon Hiew (you muz do... dun care.. blek)
7- Steven Fok
8- everyone who reads my blog and have a blog muz do
here it goes~~
Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her.
1- Funny
2- Happy-go-lucky gal
3- Like by everyone
4- look good on any kind of style
5- a good listener
6- a good friend to be
7- a gal who update herself in everything
8- someone who never forget friends
9- never buy private stuff for what she loved
10- she will try to get the stuff which is in her list
P.S: sorry if i say anything wrong
The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself
1- Stubborn
2- Night owl
3- Talkative
4- Childish
5- Naughty
6- Negative minded (depends on what)
7- Love wine, sushi etc etc
8- In love with Simon Hiew
9- Fans of sony ericsson
10- Like to do anything as long can make myself happy...
Friends that i tag [10 friends]
1- Lim Eu Gene
2- Randy (Chee Wai)
3- Sheena Liam
4- Evonne Teo
5- Yong Cheng
6- Simon Hiew (you muz do... dun care.. blek)
7- Steven Fok
8- everyone who reads my blog and have a blog muz do
Friday, February 6, 2009
Another part of the story and Exam Day 3~
Another part of the story for yesterday is more to the happy part.... Where both of us spent our time together... he tried his best to make me happy and so i did... i cant be sad forever... if not i also will be seeing him sad... i calm myself down and i tried to make him happy also....
yday around 6pm... simon decided to break his relationship with his 3rd ex (who commented about us).... i felt happy and in the meantime i felt guilty.... simon do it cause she is too over... tats what he says.... simon's parents came back and his bro also... its around 7pm tat time.... suddenly the bro throw us a 3D dino puzzle and ask us to finish it in an hour+... so i kinda enjoy doin it with simon... suddenly fall of those kind of puzzle @@
when we are eating our dinner at simon's house, his 2nd ex called.... simon asked me to pick up the call... 1st i dun dare den i pick up finally... she cant hear properly when i picked up so i asked simon to talk instead of me.... den he suddenly close the phone cause the line is not clear.... suddenly his 2nd ex send a sms... the content is asking simon not to hurt his 3rd ex anymore (the 3rd ex and 2nd ex are best frens) and if continue like tis, he will hurt all his fren... some sort like tis la... i forgotten already.... simon reads the msg and he din read the msg....
all of the sudden i have a feeling where whatever simon is doin that time its not from him... although is from him, i can bet that he felt guilty or unhappy inside him... he dun wanna tell me so i cant do anything about it.... reach home and read his blog.... i cried while reading it coz i cant believe that he was just beside me when i ran out 1st time from his house without i knowing.... i called simon last night almost a dozen time to tell him how silly is he and ask him for reason... he slept d so i cant do anything...
Now Exam Day 3~
in the morning at 7am, simon called me to ask what happen and i told him.... after the call, he called me back at 9am to wake me up to skol coz of exam... but den i sleep back again... sorry ar... was tired..... around tat time zhenyu sms me.... he tot tat i am working but i told him this whole week i'm off... so i woke up at 10am...
i replied zhenyu that time... and out of no where i heard that someone says i called simon's 3rd ex and scolded her... when did i do that?! i din!! the whole day i was with simon until 10pm... if i did call, simon would know as i'm with him every second and i will tell him every single thing tat i did or doing (maybe not in detail)..... so i calm myself down as zhenyu says he will find out and as simon says he will settle....
i reach my exam hall almost 2pm and i was shock coz i see no one there.. i asked my fren where is the others and they say the exam has been postpone to 2.30pm... i was lik swt nia.... so i go Old Town to buy Enrich Chocolate... 2 cups... coz i'm not happy so i wanna buy "happy drink"... today sit on the table number 116... i was really happy about exam today... everything was well.... now chatting with simon, genise and susan in one convensation... hahaha...
i think thats all for now ba... update tomoro... tuned in for wats happening ^^
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
yday around 6pm... simon decided to break his relationship with his 3rd ex (who commented about us).... i felt happy and in the meantime i felt guilty.... simon do it cause she is too over... tats what he says.... simon's parents came back and his bro also... its around 7pm tat time.... suddenly the bro throw us a 3D dino puzzle and ask us to finish it in an hour+... so i kinda enjoy doin it with simon... suddenly fall of those kind of puzzle @@
when we are eating our dinner at simon's house, his 2nd ex called.... simon asked me to pick up the call... 1st i dun dare den i pick up finally... she cant hear properly when i picked up so i asked simon to talk instead of me.... den he suddenly close the phone cause the line is not clear.... suddenly his 2nd ex send a sms... the content is asking simon not to hurt his 3rd ex anymore (the 3rd ex and 2nd ex are best frens) and if continue like tis, he will hurt all his fren... some sort like tis la... i forgotten already.... simon reads the msg and he din read the msg....
all of the sudden i have a feeling where whatever simon is doin that time its not from him... although is from him, i can bet that he felt guilty or unhappy inside him... he dun wanna tell me so i cant do anything about it.... reach home and read his blog.... i cried while reading it coz i cant believe that he was just beside me when i ran out 1st time from his house without i knowing.... i called simon last night almost a dozen time to tell him how silly is he and ask him for reason... he slept d so i cant do anything...
Now Exam Day 3~
in the morning at 7am, simon called me to ask what happen and i told him.... after the call, he called me back at 9am to wake me up to skol coz of exam... but den i sleep back again... sorry ar... was tired..... around tat time zhenyu sms me.... he tot tat i am working but i told him this whole week i'm off... so i woke up at 10am...
i replied zhenyu that time... and out of no where i heard that someone says i called simon's 3rd ex and scolded her... when did i do that?! i din!! the whole day i was with simon until 10pm... if i did call, simon would know as i'm with him every second and i will tell him every single thing tat i did or doing (maybe not in detail)..... so i calm myself down as zhenyu says he will find out and as simon says he will settle....
i reach my exam hall almost 2pm and i was shock coz i see no one there.. i asked my fren where is the others and they say the exam has been postpone to 2.30pm... i was lik swt nia.... so i go Old Town to buy Enrich Chocolate... 2 cups... coz i'm not happy so i wanna buy "happy drink"... today sit on the table number 116... i was really happy about exam today... everything was well.... now chatting with simon, genise and susan in one convensation... hahaha...
i think thats all for now ba... update tomoro... tuned in for wats happening ^^
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
My most horribly half day i ever had in a relationship....
Yesterday.... suppose to be my happiest day out of my exam week..... i went to club to join Simon yday.... happy that i finally can see him swim.... (^_^) but somehow stuff happened....
at club while waiting for him, i checked my hp and tot simon's hp really no battery... but once i slide up his phone the battery not dead yet... so as usual my this attitude, i checked his inbox.... it was nothing as usual... till i checked his sent item.... i was lik ok..... he tell his feelings to his ex instead of me... i'm ok.... but one hurtful thing is he asked his ex to put him to sleep.... and worst of all, he ask her to keep it as a secret.... i was lik WTF!!
so i hold it in my heart until the last minute i decided to call Zhenyu to talk about it... he was busy that time so i kept it to myself until i went back to simon's house... he suppose to teach me Add Maths since that my General Maths in uni is equal to Add Maths... on the way walking to simon's house, zhenyu called me.... i asked him to called me back in 30 minutes but once i reach simon's house, i called zhenyu 1st... i cant stand the pain so i really need to talk to someone who have almost the same commitment with me in relationship....
i talked to him and finally tears came out from my heart as it stuck for 1-2 weeks already... i felt nice when crying but things get worst... i dun dare to tell what i found out to simon so in the end i told his ex... his ex send a reply to me and its really hurtful.... the msg made me felt that i'm no longer have any place in this relationship.... i was thinking, "since that they been thru so much, den why he choose me?"
i show the msg to simon and i walked off.... i was really hoping that he come to me, hug me and explain everything but he din.... he sitting silently there and holding my phone when reading the msg... so i cant take it anymore since he dun wanna make any action... i ran out from the house... force myself to run... run as far as i can.... threw all the bad feelings behind when i'm running... so i stop at the park near his house... sitting there at the swing... thinking what to do and how to face him... there is a moment where i have a feeling that i wanted him to hug me when i was at the swing there sadly... eventually its just a dream...
i force myself to run another half round and ended up go back to his house.... once i enter his house i cant see him... i was like "Shit... Where the hell is he gone to?"... the feeling of worry and scare built in me.... as i went out from his house again, i walked to the park... walking slowly along the outer street i look into every house street for his sight.... but i cant find him... reaching to the park i was thinking, "did he come here before and sat here by the swing?" but once again i sit by the swing and have this feeling where he came before....
sadly i walked back again cause i cant find him... i din even bother to find my hp cause i tot he was holding it... so i din enter the house after i went back the second time... i tot he went back home already so i asked his siblings where he went... the brother told me that he went to the outer street so i did.... no sight of him again but thank goodness that i walked up to the house street... found him walking worrying where have i been... i shouted his name he cant here and in the end i shout again... finally he turn back... he walk towards me as i stood still...
waiting for explanation but he din... he ask me to go back with him but i'm still stand there waiting for something from him... and again he din... so i agree to go back with him.... still reach back home there is still nothing come from him.... all he did is take a drink and went up stair to the room... so i found him where he is hiding and i asked him that "is there any explanation i suppose to hear?" he kept silently...
i asked him do u actually know whats happening? he says no... i was lik wat the hack.... so i told him... he ask me in return, "do you know why i kept so many secrets from you? cause its about what u are doin and sometimes its hurtful" i answer back that "you shud let me know so i wont do that anymore"... i admit that sometimes what i says are hurtful... i'm sorry about that....
stuff between me and him are back to normal as i cant feel my heart hurt anymore.... but those thing still on my mind... keep on running around as i trying not to think at all.... whenever my mind thinks that it is a small matter but my heart hurts alot.... this is one of the cause that make me ran out yday....
i know you dun wish to share with me but please tell me as you are not the only one who beg for happiness... i do beg that you are happy when around me... being around with you i felt happy MOST of the time and not ALWAYS that you make me sad.... I do hope you can tell me what are the "secrets" is so i can change for you.... last time i had change myself for a guy... and now you are the second... so i beg you please tell me.... but one thing which is i dun force you and i will wait till the time comes....
ran out from your house is my 1st time for my 3 years of relationship.... i am really sorry to do that... just tat i cant stay at your house that time as you are not taking any actions.... i am so sorry to let you felt this feeling again... Gomenasai....
this is my part of stories... for his part of stories click here
thats all for now... i wanna go for exam... more stories tonight... stay tuned for those who wanna follow....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream tonight ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
at club while waiting for him, i checked my hp and tot simon's hp really no battery... but once i slide up his phone the battery not dead yet... so as usual my this attitude, i checked his inbox.... it was nothing as usual... till i checked his sent item.... i was lik ok..... he tell his feelings to his ex instead of me... i'm ok.... but one hurtful thing is he asked his ex to put him to sleep.... and worst of all, he ask her to keep it as a secret.... i was lik WTF!!
so i hold it in my heart until the last minute i decided to call Zhenyu to talk about it... he was busy that time so i kept it to myself until i went back to simon's house... he suppose to teach me Add Maths since that my General Maths in uni is equal to Add Maths... on the way walking to simon's house, zhenyu called me.... i asked him to called me back in 30 minutes but once i reach simon's house, i called zhenyu 1st... i cant stand the pain so i really need to talk to someone who have almost the same commitment with me in relationship....
i talked to him and finally tears came out from my heart as it stuck for 1-2 weeks already... i felt nice when crying but things get worst... i dun dare to tell what i found out to simon so in the end i told his ex... his ex send a reply to me and its really hurtful.... the msg made me felt that i'm no longer have any place in this relationship.... i was thinking, "since that they been thru so much, den why he choose me?"
i show the msg to simon and i walked off.... i was really hoping that he come to me, hug me and explain everything but he din.... he sitting silently there and holding my phone when reading the msg... so i cant take it anymore since he dun wanna make any action... i ran out from the house... force myself to run... run as far as i can.... threw all the bad feelings behind when i'm running... so i stop at the park near his house... sitting there at the swing... thinking what to do and how to face him... there is a moment where i have a feeling that i wanted him to hug me when i was at the swing there sadly... eventually its just a dream...
i force myself to run another half round and ended up go back to his house.... once i enter his house i cant see him... i was like "Shit... Where the hell is he gone to?"... the feeling of worry and scare built in me.... as i went out from his house again, i walked to the park... walking slowly along the outer street i look into every house street for his sight.... but i cant find him... reaching to the park i was thinking, "did he come here before and sat here by the swing?" but once again i sit by the swing and have this feeling where he came before....
sadly i walked back again cause i cant find him... i din even bother to find my hp cause i tot he was holding it... so i din enter the house after i went back the second time... i tot he went back home already so i asked his siblings where he went... the brother told me that he went to the outer street so i did.... no sight of him again but thank goodness that i walked up to the house street... found him walking worrying where have i been... i shouted his name he cant here and in the end i shout again... finally he turn back... he walk towards me as i stood still...
waiting for explanation but he din... he ask me to go back with him but i'm still stand there waiting for something from him... and again he din... so i agree to go back with him.... still reach back home there is still nothing come from him.... all he did is take a drink and went up stair to the room... so i found him where he is hiding and i asked him that "is there any explanation i suppose to hear?" he kept silently...
i asked him do u actually know whats happening? he says no... i was lik wat the hack.... so i told him... he ask me in return, "do you know why i kept so many secrets from you? cause its about what u are doin and sometimes its hurtful" i answer back that "you shud let me know so i wont do that anymore"... i admit that sometimes what i says are hurtful... i'm sorry about that....
stuff between me and him are back to normal as i cant feel my heart hurt anymore.... but those thing still on my mind... keep on running around as i trying not to think at all.... whenever my mind thinks that it is a small matter but my heart hurts alot.... this is one of the cause that make me ran out yday....
i know you dun wish to share with me but please tell me as you are not the only one who beg for happiness... i do beg that you are happy when around me... being around with you i felt happy MOST of the time and not ALWAYS that you make me sad.... I do hope you can tell me what are the "secrets" is so i can change for you.... last time i had change myself for a guy... and now you are the second... so i beg you please tell me.... but one thing which is i dun force you and i will wait till the time comes....
ran out from your house is my 1st time for my 3 years of relationship.... i am really sorry to do that... just tat i cant stay at your house that time as you are not taking any actions.... i am so sorry to let you felt this feeling again... Gomenasai....
this is my part of stories... for his part of stories click here
thats all for now... i wanna go for exam... more stories tonight... stay tuned for those who wanna follow....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream tonight ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Eam Day 2~
Exam Day 2~
Nothing much can say bout today as i woke up at 10am with a very very bad mood but put a mask on me as the day goes on... On the laptop in the morning, wanna setup my PC sony ericsson stuff but it fails... so i forget bout it.... when out to campus, no bus are there even it suppose to come at 12 noon... so ended up take a cab... reach to my skol putra station at 1pm.... took a bus there while calling my dear Simon.... reach to my campus at 1.20pm.... go to Old Town to eat lunch but eventually i just ate peanut butter double set and a ice signature chocolate drink....
finally 2pm already... went in to exam half.... 1st look on the question paper.... i was like "wat the hack..... its...... kinda hard".... haha.... but i tembak here tembak there so can say know how to do la.......... dun have the mood to sit for exam..... dunno why la..... den i go out early at 3.30pm... while waiting the bus, i talked to Simon.... felt happy when i talked to him.... about an hour or less if not mistaken but i do remember my battery died when i'm in the train at 4.10pm....
reach my house station at 4.40pm... give a ring to Simon by using public phone... reach home at 5.10pm.... and start online till now.... facebook-ing, msn-ing, tv, sms-ing.... tats how my night life is..... its getting more and MORE boring day by day..... so i ended doin quiz in facebook.... i dunno it is true about the result of the quiz but i do hope someone comment about it.... not that i perasan but sometime i dun realise myself....
so the quiz is "What Kind of Girlfriend are you? Bad or Good?"
and the result is "Result: Dream Girl You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have. You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)"
Someone please tell me ya... i wanna continue those lame quiz now... posting the result tomoro...
P.S : Love ya Simon and i very miss you....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Nothing much can say bout today as i woke up at 10am with a very very bad mood but put a mask on me as the day goes on... On the laptop in the morning, wanna setup my PC sony ericsson stuff but it fails... so i forget bout it.... when out to campus, no bus are there even it suppose to come at 12 noon... so ended up take a cab... reach to my skol putra station at 1pm.... took a bus there while calling my dear Simon.... reach to my campus at 1.20pm.... go to Old Town to eat lunch but eventually i just ate peanut butter double set and a ice signature chocolate drink....
finally 2pm already... went in to exam half.... 1st look on the question paper.... i was like "wat the hack..... its...... kinda hard".... haha.... but i tembak here tembak there so can say know how to do la.......... dun have the mood to sit for exam..... dunno why la..... den i go out early at 3.30pm... while waiting the bus, i talked to Simon.... felt happy when i talked to him.... about an hour or less if not mistaken but i do remember my battery died when i'm in the train at 4.10pm....
reach my house station at 4.40pm... give a ring to Simon by using public phone... reach home at 5.10pm.... and start online till now.... facebook-ing, msn-ing, tv, sms-ing.... tats how my night life is..... its getting more and MORE boring day by day..... so i ended doin quiz in facebook.... i dunno it is true about the result of the quiz but i do hope someone comment about it.... not that i perasan but sometime i dun realise myself....
so the quiz is "What Kind of Girlfriend are you? Bad or Good?"
and the result is "Result: Dream Girl You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have. You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)"
Someone please tell me ya... i wanna continue those lame quiz now... posting the result tomoro...
P.S : Love ya Simon and i very miss you....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Diary of my journey
well eventually i am happy today.... most of the time la.... morning i shud wake up at 9am to meet Simon but eventually Simon went out at 8am... so have to make things early... but still useless cause the bus and train delayed me.... so reach there around 9.30am.... meet him at KL Sentral and ended up eat MC Donald to eat breakfast.... very very full after eat.... then we take train to Wangsa Maju to shop..... I wore the jacket that i bought yesterday.... i match it with a skirt and a pair of jeans.... but i wear the jacket with a skirt....
drop by my house to take stuff for him and spent time with him by listening and online at my house.... after that we went to jusco near my house... eat our lunch (asam laksa) and drinks.... walked around and hang out at MPH for about 1 hour..... after that i send him off.... 1st we drop by at Pasar Seni to wait for U41 but it din come so went to KL Sentral for KTM.... I wait him get on KTM 1st onli go back de....
Well.... was really happy with him today... although there is a misunderstand about the sms he sent out to a girl.... but honestly i dunno its true anot that he sent wrong.... suan la.... thats all for now....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
drop by my house to take stuff for him and spent time with him by listening and online at my house.... after that we went to jusco near my house... eat our lunch (asam laksa) and drinks.... walked around and hang out at MPH for about 1 hour..... after that i send him off.... 1st we drop by at Pasar Seni to wait for U41 but it din come so went to KL Sentral for KTM.... I wait him get on KTM 1st onli go back de....
Well.... was really happy with him today... although there is a misunderstand about the sms he sent out to a girl.... but honestly i dunno its true anot that he sent wrong.... suan la.... thats all for now....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Monday, February 2, 2009
Exam Day 1
Exam Day 1~
Nothing much happen in the morning as i get up at 10am.... on the laptop and change the anti-virus while print my revision notes for last preparation for Writing in Business.... Went out at 12 noon with my mum and reach to campus at 1.30pm.... 1st thing i do once i reach there is i go find out who same examination hall with me... thank god that some of my friends are same class with me which is Sam, Kien Weng, Max etc etc.... i smsed with my dear Simon all the way go to campus and all the way back home till now... even msn now ^^ now i goin to post some of the pictures i took in exam hall...
This is the table number that i sit.. LOL
This is the front part of the hall from where i sit
the back part of the exam hall....
Eventually i sit the middle left side of the hall.... the lecturers cant even see that i replying my dear at the last 10 minutes of the exam.... they also cant see i took out my phone to snap pictures.... i finish exam at sharp 4pm and i search for friends to go home with me...
reach my house station there at 5pm... went to jusco to eat dinner... it was onli 5.30pm but i hungry what to do? hehe.... walk and eat finish dinner around 6pm+.... went to Romp to look for jacket and i found a jacket same with my dear Simon de red jacket.... i told my mum about it and she let me buy!!! haha!!! cost about RM49.90 and i had to buy medium size as my mum told me.... thats all for Exam Day 1~
Tomoro will have update... it will be about my journey with my dear Simon tomoro....
thats all for now....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Nothing much happen in the morning as i get up at 10am.... on the laptop and change the anti-virus while print my revision notes for last preparation for Writing in Business.... Went out at 12 noon with my mum and reach to campus at 1.30pm.... 1st thing i do once i reach there is i go find out who same examination hall with me... thank god that some of my friends are same class with me which is Sam, Kien Weng, Max etc etc.... i smsed with my dear Simon all the way go to campus and all the way back home till now... even msn now ^^ now i goin to post some of the pictures i took in exam hall...
This is the table number that i sit.. LOL
This is the front part of the hall from where i sit
the back part of the exam hall....
Eventually i sit the middle left side of the hall.... the lecturers cant even see that i replying my dear at the last 10 minutes of the exam.... they also cant see i took out my phone to snap pictures.... i finish exam at sharp 4pm and i search for friends to go home with me...
reach my house station there at 5pm... went to jusco to eat dinner... it was onli 5.30pm but i hungry what to do? hehe.... walk and eat finish dinner around 6pm+.... went to Romp to look for jacket and i found a jacket same with my dear Simon de red jacket.... i told my mum about it and she let me buy!!! haha!!! cost about RM49.90 and i had to buy medium size as my mum told me.... thats all for Exam Day 1~
Tomoro will have update... it will be about my journey with my dear Simon tomoro....
thats all for now....
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Diary for CNY days
Day 2 of CNY~ still stay at home as usual.... cant go anywhere... so rot at home online online and online.... smsed with Simon and tried to call him but in the end i made him turn to very very bad mood....
Day 3 of CNY~ i'm alone at home... wanted to sleep till at nite onli wake up but woke up at 12pm coz Simon smsed me.... plan not to reply him coz i wan him to sms me the 2nd time onli reply... but when i woke up again at 2pm to check msg but he din sms me.... suan le ba~ i went to cook for my lunch while trying to face and comfort Simon while he is in his serious mood.... Dun dare to mess with him when he is in tat mood if not will hurt myself onli.... so i wasn't pay attention on cooking and hurt myself.... nvm la... small matter for me... important is not cooking or whatever but is Simon.... tis situation goes on till night and finally he is back to normal after some of his words are as sharp as a spear.... That's about it for CNY day 3....
CNY day 4~ i went out with my friends to Sg. Wang and Pavillion... watch a movie and shopping!! i suppose to shop something for Simon but i ended up not enuf money to buy stuff for him after i buy a T-Shirt.... it suppose to be our anniversary gift but i wrote a letter for him.... i reach home around nite... so roughly bout it for day4....
CNY day 5~ i slept till 11am+ and play games till 1pm.... went to bank and settle stuff until 2pm.... head down to Sg Long for party and reach there at 4pm.... just in time and meet up with zhenyu, Simon and Steven to buy stuff.... the party is great... attended by Sheena, Evonne and his bf, Gloria and Zhenyu, Yong Cheng (Simon's cousin), Eugene, Me, Simon and Steven.... ate dinner at Eugene house and went to the park for extra activities.... we din actually follow the plan but we ended up chat and spent time together.... stuff happens in the park so went to Simon's place to stay over....
CNY day 6~ woke up early morning at 7am coz i cant sleep already.... Simon too.... den wait for everyone to wake up which is around 9am+ already... went to seminyir with Simon's family.... and join for his church youth CNY visiting trip... it was fun... get to spent time with Simon on the anniversary day is a nice thing.... but one bad thing is he have to leave early... sob sob.... hope to meet him soon thou coz need to return him stuff....
CNY day 7~ woke up at 11am+ den straight to computer.... mahjong at the desktop and shift to laptop after lunch since that my mum wanted to play also... took the chance to update my laptop while playing.... something hurtful happened to me.... i have exam on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and next Tuesday.... i wanted to free myself from stress by finding Simon on coming Tuesday and Thursday but he dun allow... ended up argue coz he wants me to study for exam instead of finding him.... i dunno how to explain much but to understand more visit HERE... he keep apologize for what he says but for me is a small matter already to cry for someone i love...
Simon.... You will gain forgiveness naturally if you make me cry for small matters... Don't worry ok? Hope to meet you soon... Love you....
That's all for now.... Show you a sweet dream next night....
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
Day 3 of CNY~ i'm alone at home... wanted to sleep till at nite onli wake up but woke up at 12pm coz Simon smsed me.... plan not to reply him coz i wan him to sms me the 2nd time onli reply... but when i woke up again at 2pm to check msg but he din sms me.... suan le ba~ i went to cook for my lunch while trying to face and comfort Simon while he is in his serious mood.... Dun dare to mess with him when he is in tat mood if not will hurt myself onli.... so i wasn't pay attention on cooking and hurt myself.... nvm la... small matter for me... important is not cooking or whatever but is Simon.... tis situation goes on till night and finally he is back to normal after some of his words are as sharp as a spear.... That's about it for CNY day 3....
CNY day 4~ i went out with my friends to Sg. Wang and Pavillion... watch a movie and shopping!! i suppose to shop something for Simon but i ended up not enuf money to buy stuff for him after i buy a T-Shirt.... it suppose to be our anniversary gift but i wrote a letter for him.... i reach home around nite... so roughly bout it for day4....
CNY day 5~ i slept till 11am+ and play games till 1pm.... went to bank and settle stuff until 2pm.... head down to Sg Long for party and reach there at 4pm.... just in time and meet up with zhenyu, Simon and Steven to buy stuff.... the party is great... attended by Sheena, Evonne and his bf, Gloria and Zhenyu, Yong Cheng (Simon's cousin), Eugene, Me, Simon and Steven.... ate dinner at Eugene house and went to the park for extra activities.... we din actually follow the plan but we ended up chat and spent time together.... stuff happens in the park so went to Simon's place to stay over....
CNY day 6~ woke up early morning at 7am coz i cant sleep already.... Simon too.... den wait for everyone to wake up which is around 9am+ already... went to seminyir with Simon's family.... and join for his church youth CNY visiting trip... it was fun... get to spent time with Simon on the anniversary day is a nice thing.... but one bad thing is he have to leave early... sob sob.... hope to meet him soon thou coz need to return him stuff....
CNY day 7~ woke up at 11am+ den straight to computer.... mahjong at the desktop and shift to laptop after lunch since that my mum wanted to play also... took the chance to update my laptop while playing.... something hurtful happened to me.... i have exam on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and next Tuesday.... i wanted to free myself from stress by finding Simon on coming Tuesday and Thursday but he dun allow... ended up argue coz he wants me to study for exam instead of finding him.... i dunno how to explain much but to understand more visit HERE... he keep apologize for what he says but for me is a small matter already to cry for someone i love...
Simon.... You will gain forgiveness naturally if you make me cry for small matters... Don't worry ok? Hope to meet you soon... Love you....
That's all for now.... Show you a sweet dream next night....
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
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