Day of tears and reborn

Today head to work at 9.30am... Start work at 10.30am finish my work at 11.30am coz i rush to get my result...

As wat i wish, i reach the office there is no one~ Once i get my result and the 1st thing i did is i cried~ i walk out in the middle of the sun~ walk to somewhere which no one can see me and i cried hard~ Call up Alex as he ask me to call and i told him my result~ i tot he will comfort me but he scolded me~

Haiz~ i call my gf, Genise as she keep miss call me and we plan to meet at 1pm at Petaling Street... Once i reach there i called her then she say she gotta go home early~ so i'm alone again~ i was crying all alone behind the stairs at the train station~ sms Alvin and Steven~ Alvin havent reach home yet and Steven replied me at 2pm...

On the way back in the train, Alvin replied me when i was replying Steven~ Glad that he replied~ At least sms with him my mood is better~ Steven din bring any good but i did tell him how i felt while waiting sms~ Reach my house's bus stop and curious with a road where i always see ppl come out after jogging~

Actually is a entrance to the jungle behind my house~ Make my 1st step in it and my 1st thought was is was peaceful~ the 2nd minutes i saw monitor lizard come out from no where~ i was looking at it and i just continue my walk~ i walk half way in and i saw the other end was an exit... i try to tell myself to be brave and walk till the end~ but somehow i turn myself and walk back home~

Reach home about 3pm and jump on my bed~ was crying again~ asking myself why i am no longer brave to finish the journey~ and this question bring me back to my relationship~ i already let him go half way but why i cant let go the other half~ FORGET ABOUT HIM!!

I start to throw all the stuff he gave me in the box~ I tak sampai hati to throw my favourite dog and mushroom that he gave~ But i have to!! After prom maybe i goin to buy a new one for myself~ HAHA!!