It almost a month now~
day by day i try to move on without you but it seems so hard~
the feeling of missing you, the good memories that we had keep on appearing in me~
the warm feeling that we had, i never forget it~
1 year and an month is the duration of the bonding~
i wanted to count years with you not months anymore~
because of it~ i still waiting for you~
although it hurts sometimes to see that we are not how we were,
i never hope things ended this way~
heartache at the moment of this writing~
i wont give up easily on us~
i hold strong on what i believe and our love~
no matter how pain, how suffer or how hurt is my heart is, for you i will be strong~

Love you always,
♥ Michelle ♥

Smile always | 12:12 AM

60 things a girls wants but never ask for from her guy.
    

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

5. Kiss her slowly.

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her everywhere.
 
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

26. DON'T lie to her

27. DON'T cheat on her!

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

46. Rub her back--feels good

47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute

48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good

49. Let her sit on your lap

50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.

51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.

52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL

53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.

55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.

56. Kiss her in the rain.

57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

58. Slow dance with no music

59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay. 

60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. 

Love you always,
♥ Michelle ♥

Smile always | 11:57 PM

Dear Readers,

Currently I am studying at UCSI. Which means i can hang out more with my new friend that i knew about few months ago. and most important, i get to meet and hang out with Simon. =)

My Class damn packed on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday which ends on 5pm. Wednesday still consider ok because end at 11.30am. Go to uni for 3 hours class only. OMG. Friday, tutorials only. Sigh. Planning to take 6 subjects instead of 5 subjects. Hopefully will be approve.

Genting trip is coming near!! Last 2 year which is December 2008 i went trip with Simon and now i got the chance again~ Damn happy about it~ Cant wait the day to come

Love you always,
♥ Michelle ♥

Smile always | 12:47 AM

There is a new me in me. I know I dont make sense. But anyways, these are the list of what i feeling now and what i done with this new character.

✔ Didnt feel anything when the worst thing in my life happens
✔ Didnt cry when my nightmare became reality
✔ Didnt argue with him when nightmare happened
✔ Didnt feel sad or angry or heartache
✔ Just purely agree on everything and listen
✔ Didnt be sturbborn
✔ In heart, not happy, not sad but feeling normal
✔ Something important is missing but i dont feel anything about it
✔ Plan to eat the whole time
✔ Consume more food quantity compare to normal
✔ Sleeping way late than usual
✔ Dont care or didnt really mind about study already
✔ Play Play Play! is what i targeting now
✔ Make myself busy and worn out everyday everytime


Ya. That is roughly my new character is. I think. It seems weird. Anything. Dont mind dont care.

With Hope,
Michy

Smile always | 2:12 AM