Well~ Recently my life are kinda terrible~
Where shud i begin with??
Erm~ Let me see~
1st, last 2 weeks if not mistaken, my fren betray me~ now i admit tat is betray~
stuff get worst after that~ my life is involve or can say danger~
But now it solve~ AT LAST~
Yesterday i went to take my phone~
Was happily get my phone back and start using it~
When i about to leave, i talked with my hair stylist for appointment~
About to leave the complex with a happy mood~
If i know something will happen, I shud juz go home~
But i din~ I went to the basement to check is Alex's car there anot~
I did found his car and i realize the engine is on~ So i tot he is sleeping or watever~
When i walk to his car, i saw he kinda sleeping on the seat next to the driver seat~
And i found out there is a gal there~ I stood behind his car about 5 minutes but he din realize~
After that i walk and stand next to de door, he din realize too after i stand there for 5 minutes~
I dunno why will i upset~ i walked off and i stood behind de walk~
trying to calm down myself~ when i wanna head to the lift, i saw him pass by me and smiling~
Haiz~ i tried not to cry for him but i cant control~
whenever i have problem i will go to 7 floor de parking~ there have a nice view and windy~
a nice place for release sadness but that place is dangerous coz anything may happen there~
now i feel a bit regret to call to simon yday when i cried~ but i need to talk to someone~
i called up and i release everything in me on the phone with him~
in the middle of the call, Alex called up and he explain to me~
I told him that he explain to me is no use anymore and we fight for one hour~
I knows how Simon felt about this when i talk to him about this~
He waited for my return call patiently~ when i call back, he sound sad~
altho he always speechless whenever i cried on the phone~
but i felt better coz at least he can be there for me~ at last he made me laugh~
But i kinda make him in trouble~ i shud not call him always already~
I also felt wat he felt after the call~ I knows that he will think that i take him as a replacement~
Honestly i din take him as replacement~ i accepted him cause the feelings he gave me~
cant believe i say it here (>_<) i felt happy, safe, no worries, no sadness when with him~
With him i can laugh all the time~ he keep bully me (^_^)
But the most important is he is important to me~
For me, i can sacrifice anything just to see my partner to be happy~
i dun wan my relationship like last time~ I like being with his mum~
His mum is friendly, funny~ so does his dad but dun really know his dad~
i know his mum more than his dad~ wat to do~ haiz~
recently i skip a lot of classes cause the problems/troubles that i having~
i also dunno what i'm thinking recently~
trying to keep myself a distance from the outside world~
but in the end cant~ I always have negative thoughts during handling de problem~
Can say i get scolded by my close fren, Steven cause i keep having negative thoughts~
make Simon worry about me also cause of that~
I tot that i can have my phone back but unfortunately the problem with my phone not yet fix~
so have to gif them back again~ this time much more worst~
hang to white screen, restart ownself etc etc~
Suan le ba~ recently i kinda worry about my dar cause his exam~
especially his Sejarah paper~ haiz~ hope he get good result~
kinda sad that we stay so far and we onli can meet one week once~
but now i dun feel lik meeting him one week once cause his exam~
anyways~ hopefully everything turn out fine for me, Simon and everyone that i think of~
tatas~
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