today is important day for me...
our 6 month anniversary....
today would be his last day of orientation....
one of the things that i worry is goin to start soon....
its kinda sad that we unable to celebrate our anniversary
but den i still hope for the best for his day....
honestly i did felt that love doesnt really matters for us now
coz slowly little by little start pushing me aside...
i dun mind he push me aside some other day...
but not today....
yes i know i shud not think of tat...
shud not be selfish either...
with his current situation with studies, family, friends and problem,
i shud let him go.... i dun mean by breaking up or something
let him go as in his freedom....
i dunno how to put it in words... but yea... roughly lik that...
i take alot of his time already.....
its kinda all by myself onli....
selfsih... one word to discribe...
i agree with tat Steven....
i din plan to tell him how i felt...
so i wrote it here....
as i know he dun usually update himself in my blog...
aka he dun read... so i prefer to wrote here instead...
if i told him, he would feel guilty....
today after i came back from uni....
i took a nap...
was waiting for his reply for 6 hours...
felt kinda tired....
for tat moment i think of this
The time has come,
To let the bird free,
By opening its cage,
And let him fly.
Let it fly as long it wants,
I'll leave the cage open for him,
He will be back to me,
When he need support, shelter, and love.
Fly anywhere you want,
But do remember one thing,
She always there waiting for the bird
But never trap it again in a cage
yea... i know its silly.... but den... big day today
but nothing can be done....
i admit tat i am sad bout tat...
although this is not the first time we are not celebrating...
but some how i felt really sad bout tis time...
sorry...
as usual.... as last time...
being left behind by my friends
and now being left behind in my life...
acting i'm ok all the while...
yea rite... i'm fake....
i admit tat.... i just dun lik to show i'm damn upset bout tat...
sleepover it.... nite... ciaoz
~♥~ show you a sweet dream next night ~♥~
By,
♥ Michelle ♥
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