memories and feelings

almost 3 weeks i din update le~ nothing much happen but only busy with assignment, test and trips!! test was ok ok, presentation was fine and i am happy with my maths result!! haha~ yday i have marketing presentation and prom~

prom is not as good as i tot but it was ok enuf for my 1st time prom~ was happy that i can go with simon~ have great time with him~ having him stay over is really great as i have him around me~ whenever with him, i have no trouble, sadness or anything but only happiness....

fell sick for pass 2 days... was hanging on and was trying to keep from simon... but i told him cause i promised to tell him honestly.... things was goin on smoothly... i still have some of my old attitude about treating my bf... but i keep it hidden in me... jealousy in me is very stronge recently...

i dunno wat to do about it but keep it... i tot of keeping silent would be the best way for me from getting hurt or anything... i avoid of doin things that he dislike... i dun wan him to feel sad or anything... keep to myself everything and din tell to anyone include my close fren and my bf... not telling my problem or feeling to my bf is a hard thing for me to change... tat is how i am since last time... i am glad that i have him... but it is hard for me to hide thoughts behind him cause he knows it by his own ways...

i do know that he really love me... but somehow i felt tat i din gif enuf in this relationship.... i felt the person who gave in more on this relationship was him.... although i always put him 1st before my studies but still parent comes before him... i never thought of tears will come down once again cause of the same reason... haiz.... tats all i going to write for today...

P.S love ya Simon ^^